Sunday, June 27, 2010

MIA

So Im very sorry for being MIA for so long... the last couple of weeks have been rather uneventful, since my last post, My oldest daughter went to TN to spend the summer with her dad, :( i Miss her like crazy, but at least time is going by and shes having a blast with my parents as well. Also since my last post my best friends hubby headed off to the sandbox, and it really hit me. I tagged along to take some pictures for her of their parting and i never not once thought or hesitated to go, she is my best friend and as close to me as family of course I am going to be there with her and her kidos and her hubby, I love them all soo much, but I never realized at that moment why I would break down, but I did. I didnt want her to hurt that way, ad it all hit way to close to home, at this time last year my love headed to the sandbox, and our next tour was coming WAY too quickly. anyway... enough of that hard crap, since then we have filled our days with pool days, going to the beach and all out just enjoying the HOTT freakin weather here.. I mean come on... I like it to be warm and all but this is ridiculous...
In the mean time my internet has been practically out the entire month of June, so i have had way too many of the little charter guys here, as well as crazy amounts of standing water underneath my house... ugh... so not enough matience men have been out.(gotta love base housing) also we had a freakishly crazy storm where my drive way looked like a boat ramp *&* my wooden swingset was hit by lightening and is no more...
On the bright side looks like the hubster is moving to a different command WOOHOOO :) cant wait for that ... hopefully this is the move thats whats needed for our family at the moment, as well as getting away for the 4th of july weekend :) and then weekend with some old friends at the end of the month :) The Rumseys and there sweet babies were stationed with us @Quantico way back when we were all newbies to the Good Ole Marine Corps life, and we have remained close since and learned the ropes together.. In 2005 my love and I got orders to FL from VA and not long afterwards the Rumseys moved to KS so we were WAYYY far apart, now finally fate (and the corps) have put us all back on the same side of the US, so this will be the actual first time we have see them in 5 yrs :) I sooo cant wait.. I love them, you know how in this military life you meet friends that when you move away you are like what was i thinking and you never talk again, but then there are those that truly become family and you stay close... Well the Rumseys are family to us...:) so lots and lots to look forward tooo :)

Monday, June 7, 2010

7 technical years today...

7 years ago today I married the lover pants! My love and my best friend~! In 7 years we have lived in 3 different states, procreated twice and have fallen in love all over again! We have our 3 gorgeous kidos if I do say so my self! This is our "technical" anniversary.... we got married on June the 7th 2003 because we were going through a custody fight with the baby daddy so we just fast forwarded a month ahead of our BIG wedding and tied the knot early. Our BIG anniversary is JUly 5th! Thats the day our big wedding took place at 4 pm in the afternoon However some may ask today why am I in such a funk... on a happy day.... My heart is heavy and hurting.... Anyone who knows me knows I am a MAJOR thinker.... i am a worry wort.... My Big girl turned 9 this week which I must say made me feel super old... and the lover pants birthday is friday and our anniversary is right here smack in the middle. So this has been a week of celebrations, parties and fun times, yet I am kinda bummed. How can I be happy and celebrate all these things when someone who is sooo dear to my heart is sad:( and fixing to go through the thing alll of us military wives hate..... that damn D word.... My heart is heavy becuase I am sad for her... I was in this same situation last year this time and I am rapidly finding myself in it again and I am sooo not ready. I want to be stong for her ... and tell her its not hard and the months will fly by... but in my heart i want to just sit and cry with her because its one of the hardest things I have ever had to do and i DONT want her to have to... although she has done it before ... this crap never gets easier.... but i will be here.... no matter what... sorry for the whole darn outpouring of my heart ... im just very conflicted today....